Nervous energy...what is that?? I'm not exactly sure, but I think is is what I am feeling. Tomorrow the next pre-season task is unveiled and it is 'Say it out loud'. This is what I have been afraid of...telling people that I am actually signed up to a program.
What am I afraid of? Well mostly, fear of failure. Fear of them thinking, 'Here she goes again, another hairbrained scheme that won't last the month!' Fear of it reflecting badly on the program since it has helped so many people.
But then isn't that a bit crazy? If it has helped others, why then wouldn't it work for me? And wouldn't telling people make me more accountable? Hmm...there is is. The fear rose again. I don't like being accountable for my actions to myself. If I want something I want it, and I want it now! Why are you still standing here??..........What a spoilt brat reaction!! There is my inner child screaming at the top of her lungs again!!!
Well there it is, and I think this will be my biggest issue. So, what is the solution for my new excuse..'My inner child made me do it' I think it all belongs in the doing of this next pre-season task..Say it out loud. So here is my little challenge to myself, to tell as many of my friends what I am doing and why...and be proud that I am FINALLY taking control of my life. Who knows, I may even tell a few more people about this blog!!!
P.S. check out this video...insiprational!!
http://www.youtube.com/user/12WBT?blend=4&ob=0#p/u/3/KKzFWnkeLBI
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