TWELVE

Well here we are, week 12! Honestly, even when I signed up, I wasn't totally convinced that I would actually make it. Still be on the program I mean, my self respect was so low that I didn't even believe in myself!

Strangely though, today I have realized that at this point in my life, the number 12 is very significant... How? Well I'm glad you asked!!

Firstly, and most obviously, it's 2012! The year I take back control and start looking after myself! This process didn't begin with the 12 Week Body Transformation, I had felt so low for so long that I had been reading lots of information on how to take back the power I had somehow handed over, somewhere, sometime. Most people would be unaware of how bad I felt about myself because I always put on a happy face when I needed to. Really, you would have been able to figure it out by seeing how much weight I was carrying around! But with the help of "The Gifts if Imperfection"- Brené Brown and "You Can Create an Exceptional Life"- Louise Hay & Cheryl Richardson, I began my journey of rediscovery. Thank you to my beautiful mother for giving me these books right when I needed them!!!
With this information in my mind, the concept of 12WBT wasn't so hard to understand. Yes, 2012 is MY year!

The second 12 is this week. It is Week 12 of 12WBT. Today I logged into the website and the header is shouting 'Congratulations, you made it!!' I cried!
I think it is the first time, in a long time that I have committed to something, and seen it through! It wasn't perfect all the way through, but I'm here, still on the plan at the end and oh so ready and prepared to get into the next round and truly GO FOR IT!!

Thirdly, my current weight loss is 12kg since the beginning of pre-season! Although still a few kilos off what my goal is, I am proud that I have been able to do that, when at the beginning I had such little faith in any loss at all!

Lastly, today... Wait for it... I purchased myself a size 12 pair of skinny jeans!!! Although I have already been wearing size 12 (and sometimes 10!!!) tops, I was struggling to go and try on size 12 pants. Years of denial, where I would take a size 12 into a fitting room or even home, thinking I was that size, only to discover how badly I was mistaken, has taken its toll. I stood in that change room for quite a while, incredulously looking at myself, fitting into these jeans!! It's official, I am a size 12!

For years, I would always say in my head, if only I was a size 12! But I now am opening my mind up to the possibility that once at my goal weight, I could be a 10!! What a mind blowing experience that will be!!

Thanks for reading!! xx